December 07, 2008

Dream...



Feels like a dream, 
Yesterday i still able to touch you..
Yesterday i still able to smell the scent of your perfume..
Yesterday i still can be held by you..
Yesterday i still can see your beautiful face..
Yesterday i still can feel your hands on my hair..

Sometimes i wake up in the middle of the night,
Wishing that it was just a bad dream,
Wishing that when i open my eyes i will be able to see you again..
Wishing that i can feel your presence..
Wishing that i can feel your warm hug..
Wishing that i can say i love you Mom..

I don't know how i survive each day, 
Just trying to breathe, 
Just trying to be strong,
Just trying to smile,
Coz i knew u wanted me to be strong..

Feels like there's a big hole in my heart..
Feels like I'm loosing my soul..
Feels like I'm loosing half of my self..
Feels like I'm the emptiness itself..

They said that I'm changed,
They confuse why i didn't talk much,
They said that I have to be like this and that,
They confuse why I'm not like who I used to be,

But what do they know Mom?
What do they know how much I'm loosing u?
What do they know how much I'm suffering?
What do they know how much u mean for me?
What do they know how much u always love me more than yourself?

But i promise you Mom,
I will be strong..
I will be a child that u always wanted me to be..
I promise that i will reach your dreams..
I promise that i will struggle till my last breathe..



In memories of my beloved Mom, 
Lily Andriani Samad 29 Desember 1961 - 24 November 2008

November 14, 2008

Superhuman



By: Chris Brown

Weak
I have been crying and crying for weeks
How'd I survive when I can barely speak
Barely eat, On my knees

But that's the moment u came to me
I don't know what your love has done to me
Think I'm invincible
I see through the me I used to be

You changed my whole life
Don't know what your doing to me with your love
I'm feeling all super human, you did that to me
A super human heart beats in me
Nothing can stop me here with you
Super human (I feel so superhuman X2)
Super human

Strong
Since I've been flying and righting the wrongs
Feels almost like I've had it all along
And I can see tomorrow

Where every problem is gone because
I flew everywhere with love inside of me
It's unbelievable to see how love can set me free

You changed my whole life
Don't know what your doing to me with your love
I'm feeling all super human, you did that to me
A super human heart beats in me
Nothing can stop me here with you
Super human (I feel so superhuman X2)
Super human

It's not a bird, not a plane
It's my heart and it's going, gone away
My only weakness is you
Only reason is you
Every minute with you
I can feel like I can do anything
Going going, I'm gone away in love

You changed my whole life
Don't know what your doing to me with your love
I'm feeling all super human, you did that to me
A super human heart beats in me
Nothing can stop me here with you
Super human

Super human

November 11, 2008

Slowly but sure..


I can feel it..
Slowly but sure, i can see the red rash spreading on my face again..
Bout few days, i've felt like there's something wrong inside my body,
Don't know what, and don't have ability to stop it either..

Uurrgghhhh...
I don't know why the rash spread again..
Last time the rash appears was on last June..

Hmmm...
The doctor ask me, am i being exhausted this last few days?
And i said no, I'm not physically tired or something like that..
I didn't do any physical job lately,

Well..
Maybe just a little bit depressed..
Shrug..

I know that i need to control my body and my mind,
I know that i can't get too tired, exhausted, or being depressed..
But it's hard to do so,
When the whole world seems standing against me..

Wise man says that Love is about giving and not bout receiving,
That loving someone is bout giving as much as u can, n not asking how much they can give to you..

But am i wrong for asking little bit of attention..
Am i wrong for asking little bit of understanding..

Well....
With all of these things,
I'm still so much thankful to  Allah SWT,
For still able to breathe until this vary second..
For still able to Love..




November 06, 2008

Euforia

By: Oka Rusmini

Mungkin kita memang tidak memerlukan pertemuan lagi.
Atau kau mulai takut menyentuh api yang terus tumpah dalam bola mataku?

Katamu:
"Aku menginginkan kau tumbuh jadi pohon. Daunmu yang lebat akan menyumbat gigil yang terus berderak dalam tubuh. Di luar bertalu dingin. Tak ada manusia yang bisa kuajak bicara. Tak ada matahari yang mau melepas potong tubuhnya. Jangan pernah pergi. Mari, lemparkan ranting-rantingmu yang rimbun. Mungkin aku bisa kembali hidup."

Di sebuah ruang penuh orang-orang. Kau melindap tak berani menagkap bola mataku. Aku telah menggantung kata-kataku di setiap sudut jalan-jalan kota yang padat. Mungkin bisa memanggilmu berpaling. Di rel-rel kereta tua aku melepas pikiran-pikiranku, mungkin dia kan berbiak, menempel di dinding kereta. Bila kau duduk, kau bisa mengulitinya, membawanya pulang. Aku juga meyelipkan lagu-lagu cinta, karena tak ada suara yang bisa keluar dari mulutku. Kau telah menyumbatnya.

Katamu:
"Aku lelaki yang tidak memiliki kata-kata. Kau makin jauh. Aku melihat ombak besar melumatmu. Aku pernah berlari dengan perahu dan jaring. Mungkin masih bisa kuselamatkan kau di keping tubuhku. Tapi kau terus mengikuti ombak. Kau mungkin telah hilang. Mengapa kau kembali?"

Aku pernah jatuh cinta pada patung air yang kau sembunyikan di detak jantungmu. Kau memanggil kerumunan anak-anak yang sedang bermain. Sambil menggenggam tanganku. Aku tak memiliki garis tangan, lalu kau menyuruh sepasang anak yang sedang berkasih-kasihan untuk megambil taji.

Katamu:
"Mana tanganmu. Aku akan menuliskan namaku di urat tanganmu."

Mungkin tidak lagi pernah kuimpikan pertemuan. Ketika aku mulai rajin mengirimimu bunga, daun-daun kering. Sambil mengingat berapa usiamu kini. Kadang-kadang kucari suaramu. Lalu kuselipkan di seluruh lubang telingaku. Mungkin aku bisa mengenang rasa takutmu.

Katamu:
"Aku tak ingin kehilanganmu."

Aku pernah jatuh cinta pada patung air itu. Ketika malam, kukirimi bangkai bunga. Kau melempar wangi akar padaku. Kau tidak pernah berkata-kata lagi. Selalu gelap. Dingin. Mungkin memang tidak pernah kauinginkan pertemuan lagi. Tapi aku selalu mendengar suaramu yang parau menyanyikan lagu-lagu cinta penuh ragu. Kelak bila aku bisa mengumpulkan huruf-hurufku yang tanggal akan kukirimi kau sebuah rahasia yang terus membuat denyut di dalam darahku.

Atau kau ingin mengambil namamu yang pernah kaugoreskan di telapak tanganku?

October 31, 2008

I Love You

By: Anonymous 

I love you. 
It's not a weight you must carry around.
I love you.
It's not a box that holds you in.
I love you.
It's not a standard you have to bear.
I love you.
It's not a sacrifice I make.
I love you.
It's not a pedestal you are frozen upon.
I love you.
It's not an expectation of perfection.
I love you.
It's not my life's whole purpose (or your's).
I love you.
It's not to make you change.
I love you.
It's not even to make you love me.
I love you.
It's as pure and simple as that.

October 29, 2008

My Baby Blue

Finally.. After waiting for over three months..
My baby blue is here..!!
Horrayy!!!!
The car dealer called me and say that my car is arrived and ready to be delivered whenever i want it. Once again... Horrayy!!!!
*do vampire dancing all around my bedroom*
Don't ask me how the dance looks like, it's some kind of secret dancing..
For vampire only! If i told u, then i have to bite u and turn u into a vampire..
LOL! Here's the effect of reading vampire novel too much..

Ok then, back to the topic..
I've been waited for over than three months.
I have so much plans in my head bout my baby blue,
See.. i have the name already..
I even have planned the license plate!
Since i live in Makassar, the license has to begin with DD
So, my plan for my license plate is DD 351 GN
Could you read it?
You can't? Ok.. i'll try make it simple, i'll order the license plate to be like this,
To make it easier for people to read: DD 3 5 1 G N
Still couldn't read it??
My gosh!! It read like this "DESIGN"
So much cool isn't it...!
Wakakakaka...

Hmmm.. So much happy..!! :D
So much plans in my head, feels like it's going to explode..
Easy girl,, one by one, step by step,,
Take a deep breath..

Can't hardly wait to touch it with my own hand,
Can't hardly wait to ride it and explore the city...

Oww..my baby blue.. 
You'll be another part of my life..
After my MBP and now here you are..!!
How my life is so much blessed..
Thank u so much ya Allah..

My baby blue....
Like i said to MBP before,
I'll treat you right,
So..be a great partner for me..
Okay!


October 23, 2008

What Love Is


Love is passion, obsession, someone you can't live without.
If you don't start with that, what are you going to end up with? 
Fall head over heels.
I say find someone you can love like crazy and who'll love you the same way back. 
And how do you find him? 
Forget your head and listen to your heart. 
I'm not hearing any heart. 
Run the risk, if you get hurt, you'll come back. 
Because, the truth is there is no sense living your life without this. 
To make the journey and not fall deeply in love - well, you haven't lived a life at all. 
You have to try. Because if you haven't tried, you haven't lived". 
[William Parrish] from the movie, Meet Joe Black (1998)

October 19, 2008

Soulmate


I just finished read the third book of Stephenie Meyer "Eclipse", it's the third book of the whole tetralogy. Can't wait to read the last one. After reading this novel, I'm thinking bout something. 
Soulmate..
What does it really mean?
In the book, the warewolf has an imprint, imprint is someone that destined for you, or in another word, it's your soulmate.

"It’s so hard to describe. It’s not like love at first sight, really. It’s more like . . .
gravity moves. When you see her, suddenly it’s not the earth holding you here anymore. She does. And
nothing matters more than her. And you would do anything for her, be anything for her. . . . You become
whatever she needs you to be, whether that’s a protector, or a lover, or a friend, or a brother."

That's what Jacob said, in "Eclipse", to describe imprint.

Hmm.. Is it true? That in this big big world, we can find our soulmate?

Okay then, I'm doing little research bout soulmate.
Bout what soulmate means.
And here are the results:

1. Soulmate (or soul mate) is a term sometimes used to designate someone 
with whom one has a feeling of deep and natural affinity, friendship, love, intimacy, sexuality, spirituality and/or compatibility.
A related concept is that of the twin flame or twin soul – which is thought to be the ultimate soulmate, 
the one and only other half of one's soul, for which all souls are driven to find and join. However, not everyone who uses these terms intends them to carry such mystical connotations.

2. One theory of soulmates, presented by Aristophanes in Plato's Symposium,
is that humans originally were combined of four arms, four legs, and a single head made of two faces,
but Zeus feared their power and split them all in half, condemning them to spending their lives searching for the other half to complete them.

3. Spiritual Soulmate Concepts Many religions and spiritual paths believe in reincarnation and the concept of karma.
Through reincarnation, soulmates may spend many lifetimes together in past lives.
Other spiritual methods of searching for one's soulmate are astrology, numerology, palm reading, personality types, and magic.
Modern spritual paths often blend western and eastern philosophies. 

4.  A soulmate may be someone in your life who constantly gets "under your skin" or may be someone who you have a deep, intimate relationship with. 
We believe that we are soulmates because there was an instant feeling of "coming home" when we got together and everyday we recognize how we help one another in our spiritual growth.
We belief that perfect mate that you refer to is certainly out there but you have to be ready and you have to be willing to be conscious in your relationship.

I even found a few steps, how to find soulmate. 

1. Be the person you would love to love. Instead of waiting for your soulmate to appear, make yourself the person you would like to find.
Work on becoming the unique individual you're looking for. Just as you would want your soulmate to be comfortable in their own skin, work on just being yourself.
You'll stand a better chance of getting noticed if you are comfortable, confident, and happy to be you.
Expressing your individuality is the closest you can come to advertising your soulmate potential.
Not only will you stand out, but you'll also be doing things that are more likely to bring you closer to your soulmate, who probably has similar interests and goals.

2. Remember that your soulmate might not be what you expect.
If there's only one person in the world who can be your soulmate, what are the chances that they'll live in your town, look like the people you grew up with, or even speak the same language?
Your soulmate does not have to live in the same country or even the same hemisphere as you.
Be willing to span the globe for your true love. Also, if you're expecting your soulmate to be love at first sight, you might never find what you're looking for.
So keep an open mind. Part of the romance of having a soulmate is being pleasantly surprised. Never change who you are inside.

3. Be patient. Life doesn't normally work on the schedule you envision.
Your soulmate might cross your path when you're 8 or 80 years old.
Don't be surprised either if there is a considerable age difference between the two of you.
Yes, you might look forward to spending the majority of your life with your soulmate—perhaps buying a house, getting married, starting a family—but things do not always go as you plan.
Your soulmate will color your world no matter how old you are, so don't rush into things, or else you might end up forcing the wrong person into the soulmate box, which will cause pain for everyone involved.

4. Accept people for who they are, not who you want them to be.
When you've got all these fantasies flying around in your head about how wonderful and special your soulmate will be, it can be easy to look for those specific characteristics and features in anyone you get involved with.
Unfortunately, unrealistic expectations can ruin a relationship, and might even chase your soulmate away.
Whoever it is that you think might be your soulmate, appreciate their individuality and trust that if this person is your soulmate, they'll never need to change who they are for you, just like you'll never need to change who you are for them.
That doesn't mean that you can't encourage them to try something new or help them to grow as a person, just don't force things on them that they are not comfortable with.

5. Weather the storms. Contrary to what popular media would have you believe, meeting your soulmate doesn't guarantee "happily ever after."
Things won't get easier when you find that special someone, and in fact, they might get even harder.
Ultimately, a soulmate is someone with whom you can grow, and the only way to grow together is to face challenges together.
So if you put your heart and soul into a relationship, stick with it through the ups and downs, even when you question whether it's meant to be, and you might look back decades later and realize that you were with your soulmate all along.
True love with your soulmate does not grow on its own: it must be cultivated and continually nurtured. So be lovable, and be willing to love like there is no tomorrow.


Someone that make u feel whole, someone that make u feel home,
Someone that will color up your life,
Someone that will light up your day, 
Someone to be your shining star,
Someone that will be the center of your universe,
Someone to spend this short life through,
Someone that u can share every single thing and will still be there for u..

Hope that we can be lucky enough to find that kind of person in our life, 
insya Allah,
Amin..

October 16, 2008

Realize


By: Colbie Calliat

Take time to realize,
That your warmth is. Crashing down on in.
Take time to realize,
That I am on your side
Didn't I, Didn't I tell you.

But I can't spell it out for you,
No it's never gonna be that simple
No I cant spell it out for you

If you just realize what I just realized,
Then we'd be perfect for each other
and will never find another
Just realized what I just realized
we'd never have to wonder if
we missed out on each other now.

Take time to realize
Oh-oh I'm on your side
didn't I, didn't I tell you.
Take time to realize
This all can pass you by.. Didn't I tell you

But I can't spell it out for you,
no its never gonna be that simple
no I can't spell it out for you.

If you just realized what I just realized
then we'd be perfect for each other
then we'd never find another
Just realized what I just realized
we'd never have to wonder if
we missed out on each other now.

It's not always the same
no it's never the same
if you don't feel it to.
If you meet me half way
If you would meet me half way.
It could be the same for you.

If you just realized what I just realized
then we'd be perfect for each other
then we'd never find another
Just realized what I just realized
we'd never have to wonder
Just realized what I just realized

OoOoOOo

missed out on each other now
missed out on each other now

October 13, 2008

In my place


By: COLDPLAY


In my place, in my place
Were lines that I couldn't change
I was lost, oh yeah
I was lost, I was lost
Crossed lines I shouldn't have crossed
I was lost, oh yeah

Yeah, how long must you wait for it?
Yeah, how long must you pay for it?
Yeah, how long must you wait for it?
Oh for it?

I was scared, I was scared
Tired and underprepared
But I wait for it
If you go, if you go
Leave me down here on my own
Then I'll I wait for you

Yeah, how long must you wait for it?
Yeah, how long must you pay for it?
Yeah, how long must you wait for it?
Oh for it?

Singing ooh ooh
Please, please, please
Come back and sing to me
To me, me

Come on and sing it out, now, now
Come on and sing it out to me, me
Come on and sing

In my place, in my place
Were lines that I couldn't change
I was lost, oh yeah
Oh yeah

October 12, 2008

Tuko's proposing ceremony

Yesterday my big family held a proposing ceremony.
One of my cousin will get married, his full name is Radikal Guntur Tetuko,
but i usually called him Tuko.
He's two years older than me. But since i don't have any brother or sister, I'm really close with my cousins. 
The proposing ceremony in Bugis language called "Mappettu' ada"
So we gather in my cousin's house, and from there we go his Mira's house (mira is tuko's girlfriend).

In the proposing ceremony, after the proposal get accepted, 
an engagement ring should be given,
i held the ring, and that's why i wear "baju bodo"
Dita, tuko's little sister held the "uang mahar"
so she has to wear the same too.

Alhamdulillah, the ceremony went smooth and the proposal get accepted. 
Wish your marriage full of blessing and happiness, cousin..:)


10 things bout me

Well, this is a request from one of my friend, oomkoko,
So, here it is..

1. Emotional
Most of people think that I'm a very emotional person. I get angry easily,
even for little things. Hmm.. maybe it's in my blood..
My grandma and my mom are also very emotional.
*hope they won't read my blog*

2. Blue is all around
I love BLUE so much. My bedroom is blue. My bed is blue. 
My bedroom floor is blue.
My MBP garskin is blue. 
Unfortunately my eyes aren't blue..
But my glasses are blue. Even the lenses are blue!
It makes me able to see everything that i see in my favorite color.

3. English people
Don't know why but somehow i feel as if i was born in England!
Maybe in my past life i really born there. Hahaha..
Sometimes i wish that if i could meet Queen Elizabeth, i will say that i wanna change my nationality.
Only in my imagination. Right?

4. Architect wanna be
Since i was a little child i love to draw.
And one day i realize that i wanna be an architect.
I'm in progress of finishing my architectural bachelor degree now.
Hope that i can finish it soon.
Coz i still wanna continue my post graduate study to Australia with my best friend Uni. Amin.

5. Extraordinary
Being an ordinary person will be so much boring for me. I like being different.
I love being extraordinary. When people stare at me and think "what the....!"
hahaha..
Life is hard enough, no need to make it harder by thinking what people might think bout u,
Live your life, coz life is too short to be someone but yourself!!

6. Short hair
My hair is short. Long hair is not suitable for me.
I like to keep it simple. Long hair will need extra care.
N i don't need extra thing to care bout..:)
I'm boyish, not a feminine one.
So... traditional man who associate women with long hair...
Don't take a look at me, coz I'm not the one that u're looking for.

7. Chocolateholic
Almost every day, i eat chocolate. 
Chocolate with almond is my favorite one.
I don't like white chocolate, it's too sweet for me. 
I'm not as that much sweet u know! :p
I like the dark chocolate too,
If someone ask me what does dark chocolate feels like,
then i'll answer it feels like LOVE
Don't get what i mean?
Try to eat the dark chocolate, the one with 99% chocolate.

8. Perfectionist
I like everything to be perfect. 
I know that no body's perfect, but i like everything to be perfect
At least from my point of view..
I like being on time, maybe bcoz i'm perfectionist.
I hate when people late, and when they're late..
Back to no.1 , i'll get angry with them.

9. Loner
Really enjoy being alone. Not that I'm anti social.
But i just like to spend the time alone. 
Sometimes being in the crowd makes me feel so lonely and empty.
I love to be alone in my room, reading this and that,
writing this and that, thinking bout this and that..
Maybe even bout you! :))

10. The only child
I'm the only child in my family.
How does it feel?
Hmm.. sometimes it feels bad when my parents get too much overprotected.
But most of the times it feels great, coz i get every thing that i want,
i get every love that i need, i get every attention that i seek,
N it makes me so much childish and egoist..
Hahaha...






October 11, 2008

A whole new world

OST - Aladdin

I can show you the world.
Shining shimmering splendid.
Tell me princess now when did you last let your heart decide.
I can open your eyes.
Take you wonder by wonder.
Over sideways and under on a magic carpet ride.

A whole new world.
A new fantastic point of view.
No one to tell us no or where to go or say we're only dreaming.
A whole new world.
A dazzling place I never knew.
But now from way up here it's crystal clear that now I'm in a whole new world with you.

Unbelievable sights.
Indescribable feeling. Soaring, tumbling, free-wheeling.
Through an endless diamond sky.

A whole new world.
Don't you dare close your eyes.
A hundred thousand things to see.
Hold your breath, it gets better.
I'm like a shooting star.
I've come so far.
I can't go back to where I used to be.

A whole new world.
With new horizons to pursue.
I'll chase them anywhere, there's time to spare.
Let me share this whole new world with you.

Oh a whole new world.
A new fantastic point of view.
No one to tell us no or where to go
or say we're only dreaming.
Every turn a surprise.
With new horizons to pursue.

I'll chase them anywhere, there's time to spare.
Anywhere.
Oh there's time to spare.
Let me share,
this whole new world with you.

With You. A whole new world.
A whole new world.
That's where we'll be.
Where we will be.
A thrilling chase.
A wonderous place.
For you and...me.

October 08, 2008

Someone who lives in your heart


By : ALL 4 ONE

Last night, I dreamt that you were beside me
It seemed so real, that I cried
When you touched me, you're my angel
And you've given me wings
And I'll fly away with you wherever you go
Cause you've filled my heart and you've captured my soul
And baby I want you to know

If there's one thing in this world that I know is true
It's the love that I feel when I'm thinking of you
No ocean, no mountain can keep us apart
Cause no one can take away someone who lives in your heart
All out hopes and our dreams are alive
I'll carry you with me through distance and time
Nothing in this world can keep us apart
No one can take away someone who lives in your heart

And I know there's a million stars between us
But they won't stop my longing
To hold you and to kiss you
How I love you

And I'll find my way to you wherever you are
Coz you're in my soul and you've got my heart
And your love will carry me on

If there's one thing in this world that I know is true
It's the love that I feel when I'm thinking of you
No ocean or mountain could keep us apart
Coz no one can take away someone who lives in your heart
All the hopes and the dreams are alive
I'll carry it with me through distance and time
No one in this world could keep us apart
Coz no one can take away someone who lives in your heart

Here in my arms,were you should be
Cause your love that makes me believe
That nothing or no one can tear us apart cause baby your in my heart

If there's one thing in this world that I know is true
It's the love that I feel when I'm thinking of you
No ocean or mountain could keep us apart
Coz no one can take away someone who lives in your heart
All the hopes and the dreams are alive
I'll carry it with me through distance and time
No one in this world could keep us apart
Coz no one can take away someone who lives in your heart

October 06, 2008

Dancing with imagination..

"what should i do?"

plz don't ask me what i want u to do, coz i don't understand what should i do either..

"just write it in your book
n close it if you confuse
n open it to remember me
or you can throw out far far away"

if only everything could be as that simple..

can u teach me how to dance n laugh
coz sometimes i forget how to do that

just take my hands
and hold me close

"sure i do"

take me wherever the wind blows
take me to the new world
no need to think
just feel the rhythm

"are u sure to do that?
I think..
u want to do that by ur self
i can't dance"

me too,
but with you i learn a lot of new things
with u i won't be afraid to face anything
with u i'm ready to explore the world

"plz give me little smile with dance
shake my soul
reach my dreams
let me depend on you
with your move"

i'll give u dance, my smile..
fill my soul, with your purity
and let it blend with your soul
together we'll be..
reaching the eternity.

All my life


By: K-Ci & Jojo

I will never find another lover sweeter than you,
Sweeter than you
And I will never find another lover more precious than you
More precious than you
Girl you are close to me you're like my mother,
Close to me you're like my father,
Close to me you're like my sister,
Close to me you're like my brother
You are the only one my everything and for you this song I sing

And all my life I've prayed for someone like you
And I thank God that I, that I finally found you
All my life I've prayed for someone like you
And I hope that you feel the same way too
Yes, I pray that you do love me too

I said you're all that I'm thinking of.....baby

Said, I promise to never fall in love with a stranger,
You're all I'm thinking of, I praise the Lord above,
For sending me your love, I cherish every hug,
I really love you

And all my life, baby, baby, I've prayed for someone like you,
And I thank God that I, that I finally found you, baby
All my life I've prayed for someone like you
And I hope that you feel the same way too
Yes, I pray that you do, love me

You're all that I ever known, when you smile,
on my face, all I see is a glow.
You turned my life around, you picked me up when I was down,
You're all that I ever known, when you smile
on your face all I see is a glow,
You picked me up when I was down
You're all that I ever known, when you smile
on your face all I see is a glow,
You picked me up when I was down and I hope
that you feel the same way too,
Yes I pray that you do love me too

All my life, I've prayed for someone like you,
And I thank God that I, that I finally found you
All my life I've prayed for someone like you
Yes, I pray that you do love me too
All my life I've prayed for someone like you
And I thank God that I, that I finally found you
All my life I've prayed for someone like you
Yes, I pray that you do love me too

Can i love u,,

Can i love u,
As lovingly as the sea breeze that whisper the sand slowly,
As tender as its wind caressing the coconut tree,
Hugging the wave, rolling over the sea sides,
Widely but never ends, forever longing..

The sand is white, purity of its own,
Crave and created from broken pieces of sea shells,
Jewel of the broken hearted,
Like the untouchable pearls under the oceans bottom..

Love is like the seas,
It never drew to end,
The unlimited search,
The unseen lovers,
Beauty by its own..

September 27, 2008

Will work for Love

By: USHER

Can you help me?
Anybody out there help me
Please can you help me?

Excuse me mister, I fell on hard times, I need some help
But don't need a dime, don't earn a way, I'll wash your clothes
If you let me stay, find your revoke,
Day after day, people walk by, I can't catch their eyes
I Pull out my sign,

It says:
Will work for love
I will [3x] I'll work for love, overtime
Baby, it says will work for love
I will [3x] I'll work for love, for all my life
I will work for love

Can you help me? (help me)
Anybody out there help me (does anybody out there)
Please can you help me?

Excuse me you two, got love to spare?
Search my whole heart, it ain't none in there
Pardon me sister, I'm on my last
Don't have no love, that's OK, God bless

Day after day people walk by, I can't catch their eyes
I Pull out my sign, it says:
Will work for love
I will [3x] I'll work for love, overtime
Baby, it says will work for love
I will [3x] I'll work for love, for all my life
I will work for love

It says:
Will work for love
I will [3x] I'll work for love, overtime
Baby, it says will work for love
I will [3x] I'll work for love, for all my life
I will work for love

I remember the day I lost my heart (hey yeah)
Took it for granted I went to far
Fall down, cried and to feel that love again
I Hold on this sign till the very end
Do anything

I will [3x] I'll work for love, overtime
Baby, it says will work for love
I will [3x] I'll work for love, for all my life
I will work for love

Laskar Pelangi the movie




After reading the novel, here comes the movie...

Laskar Pelangi the movie has been the most expected movie recently. At least for me, it is!

Over all the movie was great. Although with a little cut in few parts and add few new things, we still can catch the essence. Maybe for those who didn't read the novel got little bit confuse with the story and the character of each children. My friends for example. They didn't read the book, and they're asking me few questions bout the story. Coz however 2 hours movie couldn't cover the whole story of a novel. So i recommend u to read the novel first.

What i really like bout the movie is that they're using the Belitong's children, so it helps in making the movie feels real. They're so natural, and it's a really good point for me.
What i don't really like bout the movie is that sometimes they're making it bigger than it should have, or in another word, they're dramatizing the movie. I don't really like that, coz for me the story itself already being a great and deep story, without needing more unnecessary spices here and there. Hope they won't do that again in the next movie.
Especially bcoz Sang Pemimpi is my favorite part of the tetralogy.

For you who hasn't watch the movie, i recommend u to watch this movie.
Hope u can be inspired by the movie!!
And hope someday we also can be an inspiration...

September 24, 2008

Quizzes

I just take a few quizzes on blogthings.com
and here are the results:




Your Autumn Test Results



You are a dynamic, vibrant person. You aren't afraid to pursue your passions.



When you're happiest, you are outgoing and expressive . You love celebrations, and you enjoy showing off a little.



You tend to be afraid of change. You are never ready for things to be different.



You find novelty to be the most comforting thing in the world. You love anything that's new or unusual.



Your ideal day is spontaneous and surprising. You like to play things by ear, and you always end up doing something interesting.



You tend to live in the moment. You enjoy whatever is going on, and you don't obsess over the past or future.






Your Blogging Type is Unique and Avant-Garde



You're a bit ... unusual. And so is your blog.

You're impulsive, and you'll often post the first thing that pops in your head.

Completely uncensored, you blog tends to shock... even though that's not your intent.

You tend to change your blog often, experimenting with new designs and content.






You Are Strength



You represent both fiery energy and steadfast will.

You are innocent and naive - yet unafraid and undaunted.

Perhaps you don't have the most powerful physical strength...

But your mental powers make up for any amount of muscle.



Your fortune:



Lately, you have been a pillar of ethics and moral strength.

And while things may be difficult, your faith in yourself will come through.

You may need to conquer the animalistic nature of yourself or others, with gentle force.

Although this may seem like the darkest hour for you, victory is near.






What's Sexy About Your Name



You are sexy because you are always up for a fun fling.

You're sexually open and assertive. You know what you want, and you're going to get it.



You are a very physically attractive person. You take care of your body.

You are attracted to other gorgeous people - and you don't care if that's shallow.



You don't have many sexual hang ups or issues. You simply enjoy sex.

You are adventurous and open to new experiences. You experiment freely.






Your Career Type: Artistic



You are expressive, original, and independent.

Your talents lie in your artistic abilities: creative writing, drama, crafts, music, or art.



You would make an excellent:



Actor - Art Teacher - Book Editor

Clothes Designer - Comedian - Composer

Dancer - DJ - Graphic Designer

Illustrator - Musician - Sculptor



The worst career options for your are conventional careers, like bank teller or secretary.






You Are a Night Person



For you, there's nothing worse than having to get up and moving early.

In fact, you probably don't hit your peak until well after the sun has set.

So if your struggling to make it on a normal schedule, realize it's not your fault.

You just weren't meant to do anything during the day!

September 23, 2008

Me and my MBP

It's just a little story bout the journey through my first Mac.

At the first sight, i went to a computer fair and i really got a heart shot.
The white MacBook is absolutely a perfect notebook, the design is so great until i feel like my heart will be broken if i don't have that. But when i take a look at the price, wow!
It's quite expensive for me. Although the specification is great but i couldn't afford that stuff for now. Unless i rob a bank or something like that.

So i went home broken hearted and keep dreaming bout that white MacBook...

2 years after that, while i'm taking final project for my bachelor degree,
my dream bout that MacBook hit me back.
Maybe bcoz i need a perfect gadget for a perfect result of my final project and the price has got a little bit make sense for me now (my parents will pay it for me).
So, i'm doing some research over the internet in purpose to find a perfect notebook for me.
Who knows? maybe they have a better series now. Or maybe there's a  better one than apple.
And my research shows that apple is still the best in its class.

Some good friends of mine try to convince me not to buy a Mac.
Coz in my hometown, there's still very few of people who use Mac. So, it will be a little bit difficult to have it. U know, like the application, software, games, and something like that.
They try to convince me to buy the sony vaio instead.

Hmm... i'm getting a little bit confuse now.
I know that MacBook has a different operating system from the PC that i used to use.
But, I REALLY LOVE THE DESIGN. 
So i'm doing another research on the internet.
I'm trying to compare between Mac and sony vaio.
I compare every sony vaio series, i read every specification and features, but still each type has its own advantage and disadvantage, one type has this but lack in that, in my conclusion, no type has perfect specifications as apple does.

So, i tell all of my friends, that i'm already sure to buy a Mac. And according to my research, MacBook Pro is the best choice that can fit all of my needs in design.
So i went to a Computer store with happy smile on my face, i'm ready with my decision, i'm ready to buy my fresh new Mac!
But guess what, that Apple authorized reseller has gone out of stock for the type that i was looking for. I was looking for a 2,5GHz MBP, but they just got the 2,4GHz.
Actually it's not a very big deal, only 0,1 different. But, i'm a little bit perfectionist person.
Get what exactly what i want or nothing at all.

So once again i went home broken hearted..

And suddenly a chance come over to me. My mom wants me to go to Jakarta for a medical treatment (i'll explain bout it at in another post). 
I said in my heart ( Aha! why not? it's a very good idea). I can take the treatment and also buy my Mac. Sounds like great!

So, i went to Jakarta with my mom. In Jakarta i did a little research again bout the price of Mac there. Coz u know what? Each apple authorized reseller has different price!
I just find that out. So, i compare the price of each store.
The difference quite surprising to me, coz the difference is varied, sometimes just few hundreds thousand of rupiahs, sometimes it can reach one million rupiahs, wow!
I can buy lots of stuff with that much money!

After find out the cheapest apple authorized reseller, i went there,
N guess what? Youpz, the same case in Makassar, they have gone out of stock for MBP.
I went to the second cheapest, and the same case again. D**N!!
What's wrong with all of those store?
I'm so much depressed now, and i decide that the price difference doesn't matter anymore.
I will take any store that has the MBP stock.
I'm so much desperate of wanting a MacBook Pro.
*sigh*

So, i went to the third cheapest store or i can say, the second most expensive store,
And they said that they have one last stock of 2,5GHz Core2Duo MacBook Pro!
Feels like the MBP has destined to be mine!!!
Horray!!!
I said i'll take it!!
I'm so much happy at the first time i touch my MBP...
Finally a dream come true, after dreaming for this long time, i can have it in my own hand!

Welcome to my world..... MBP!
Feels like you're going to accompany me through the journey of my life.
Be a great partner key!!

A new blog of mine!

Clap your hands everybody..!! 
Finally.. a brand new blog of mine!
Just a scratch of little bit this and that.
Just writing what i feel like to write,
Just adding what i feel like to add,
I'm sure this blog will be so much far away from perfect,
but i'll try to make it better and better.
Not much to say for the first time,
It's not as that much easy to write, u know..?!
So... happy exploring a little world of mine!!

A Poetry..

By: Emily Dickinson

Good Morning - Midnight -
I'm coming Home -
Day - got tired of Me -
How could I - of Him?

Sunshine was a sweet place -
I liked to stay - 
But Morn - didn't want me - now
So - Goodnight - Day!

I can look - can't I - 
When the East is Red?
The Hills - have a way - then
That puts the Heart - abroad -

You - are not so fair - Midnight -
I choose - Day -
But - please take a little Girl -
He turned away!